problems

I have problems. Problems that cause me to doubt my own character a little more (on occasion) than my problems may cause others to doubt it. It's funny how that can work sometimes. This causes me to think that this is a problem in itself.

I'm working on it though.

Of course remembering to also work on the problems that cause other problems would be a good idea, wouldn't it? Then the problem of thinking you're useless wouldn't be such a problem in the first place, or would it?

But, I think, there is at least some progress being made. That is, I know that I have problems, so the next step would be; exactly how to approach solving the problem of having a problem.

I kill myself probably more than I deserve for the things I do.

I have to remember that Jesus was killed for my sake. Who am I to try to add onto what Jesus fully accomplished?

This is a crapy place to be right now for me though. Since coming out of a bit of depression, I am having a bit of trouble cleaning up the mess i made while I didnt care about anything.

Its like waking up to a horrible mess. The worst part is that when im done cleaning up, im basically going to have to start from square one. But thats not a bad as you might think. Im coming out of it just a tiny bit more wise than i was going into this mess i made for myself. I just need to stop feeling bad about it and start cleanig.